You look at me and wonder if this is the way it's got to be

And I say that it is 

at least until I can get these demons out from the inside of me

That's why I drink whiskey and take pills and smoke dope

It's why I can go a week without an ounce of sleep

I'll staple my eyelids opened and catch everything, but still nope

But these drugs make it hard on me 

sometimes I get so fucked up that I can hardly think

Sometimes the air just won't breathe

But a cigarette will 

let me be clear my sinuses and nort another pill

And I'm not just chasing a thrill 

I got me a secret to kill

I got the bodies stacking up but they're all dead when a silent hill

still make em shrill 

Kill small violent spills

Blood drips maybe I was sick

Maybe I am mad 

guess they assume it's been maddening

I'm not who you want me to be or maybe I am 

but it's all in the name again

Six letters in each name that I use 

I think about it as often as I try to get confused

I might be un keptderground up but it's in my head again

I must be back from the dead again